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[|The AAAAAHHHH Part]
So we're at the AAAAAAHHHHH part. The question is no longer whether we have a test this week, but how many and how awful will they be.

Annoying issues are as fo llows:

1) There are definitely times when I feel like I'm back in high school. Do people like me? Who's in the cool group? Am I cool? How do I get to talk to the people I want to talk to that I don't really talk to yet?

2) How good is good enough? B's to pass? The mean? A's? This is actually quite stressful. We're all over-achievers and used to getting A's. I had a taste of this at Cornell and learned to be satisfied with "slightly above the mean." But what about now? Everyone is freaking out about their grades in a really disconcerting, infectious way. Are they right? Should I worry more? This seems like such a simple problem to figure out, but when your brain is preoccupied with memorizing the erector spinae muscles for the next exam, little tasks like these take the back burner.

3) Related to #2, how good is my Best? Everyone tries their best, right? Yeah, right. There's always more you could be doing: sleeping less, studying more; bathing less, studying more; eating, drinking, WHATEVER less & studying MORE. Now, is the key hitting that happy medium where you're doing fairly well and still mostly sane, or is it best to put sanity on the back-burner, along with little philosophical problems like #2, and just ACHIEVE. I used to think the latter was correct, but I can't live like that. Does that mean I'm not tough? Not committed enough? Not passionate and energetic enough to achieve ANYTHING but moderation and a pleasant upper-middle-class life? Maybe. Is that bad? You can't achieve anything great without being uncomfortable, so perhaps this means I am doomed to mediocrity.

What is right? For ME? Will it matter in 100 years? Bah.

Characteristics and Criteria - First Person -For a diary entry writing in first person is the only way to go, it makes it more personal and legit. - Feelings/Emotions - If there are no feelings and its not personal in anyway that shoud not be considered a diary entry.Things need to be written down like how did you feel? and what made you feel that way? -Questioning -especially in this diary entry theres many questions that pertain to the past, present and future. Its good to question yourself it shows your keeping yourself in check.

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